Happy & Stress

Have you ever felt happy and stress at the same time. Both feelings are also related to the same thing. Most of must be wondering why I say so?

Well if you have been following my blog, previously I've ended a relationship with A and I went through a hard time. Then B came into my life who treats me so well,care for me. I accepted B in my life. Now A wanna come back in my life. Arghhhh~~~

Now I have to choose one and because of me trying to avoid choosing. I've transformed into a guy that all girl despise most and most guy dream of doing which is "One Foot Step Two Boat".

I can't deny the fact that I still love A very very much, but I have doubts in her since she already hurt me once. Else for B, I have very little feeling for her but I enjoy being around with her because she makes me feel MAN.

All I know I'm trying to hold on to this 2 relationship together because I can't afford to lose both girls. A who I love with all my heart and soul B who loves me with all her heart and soul.

So What Should I Do...?

Happiness

What is the true meaning of happiness? Suddenly this question pops out of no where in my mind. I went to the wikipedia site to search the meaning the of happiness and I get this "Happiness is an emotion associated with feelings ranging from contentment and satisfaction to bliss and intense joy."

How those one person find happiness, is it when something hilarious or joyful happen then only you find happiness? Well, for me I guess currently my happiness is determined by her. So long as I know she is going through everything well and easy I will feel happy. But I guess we felt unhappy through the times we was with each other, as I dissapointed her by being drunk countless times. Now that I think back, I have been going drunk because I cared for her too much till when i know she going through something hard I will keep quiet and go through it alone. Last Saturday we had an big arguement, the arguement took place in the middle of the streets in Hartamas. It was all my fault because I drunk, I was drunk because of the things she has been doing lately.

Sigh~~~

Well, I really don't know if things between me and her will ever have an U-turn. All I know now is no matter what I will always be watching over her to make sure everything goes smoothly for her and as long as she is happy, Happiness is there for me as well.

Red Cliff

I've always been fascinated when it comes to watching war movies. Movies like Gladiator,300,Empress And The Warrior,3 Kingdoms : Resurrection Of The Dragon and now the latest is Red Cliff. I haven't been going to the cinema for a long long time already or should I say catching up movies. Recently I went back to the DVD to bought a few movies one of it was "RED CLIFF".
Last night i was bored so I decided to watch, many people criticises that they were disappointed with the movie. But to be honest I give two thumbs it for it. "WHY I GIVE TWO THUMBS UP FOR IT?" Its is because of the strategy used, war scene , heroic doings in the movies makes its interesting and awesome. Smart brains like Zhou Yu and Zhuge Liang, Heroic doings of Guan Yu and Zhao Zilong, the beauty of Xiao Qiao and Sun Shangxiang. There is 1 part which I really highlight most of the strategy "BAGUA FORMATION", this formation makes me even eager to watch more and learn more because all in my mind now is how to break that formation.Is it a deadly formation where only opposittion can only enter and a 100% of no exit or is there a way out. hehe...gonna find out through the help of the WORLD WIDE WEB..
So at this very moment, I feel like going home to rewatch that movie..HOHOHOHOHOHO...

The Poster OF The Movie

The Wise And Brave Zhou Yu From The Sun Clan

The Smarty Pants Of The Liu Clan Zhuge Liang

The Brave Warrior @ My Fav Actor In This Movie Zhao Zilong

The Beauty In This Movie Xiao Qiao

NISSAN STANZA

Before I start to say anything else, I just wanna let you all know that in the end I went for the birthday dinner. It was simple yet fun because it was very harmonious. Today my topic is gonna be about my beloved car "NISSAN STANZA". Those people who knows this car may think that it's an old and useless car. But in my eye and heart this car means a lot to me, I've been through a lot with this car and not to mention this car even saved my life twice. My car first arrived in my family on Feb 1983, back then a 1.6cc car was already considered as a posh car, but nowadays its normal. That car companied me on my first day to kindergarden,school,college and even to work. So that's why i felt like I have developed a bond with my car, it may be old but the speed and the stability of the car is perfect. But sadly I have crashed this car twice in my 6 years of driving, and I thank god that I've been always still being able to stand still without being hospitalized after the crashed. I guess I owe my life to this car as this car really saved my life. 3 months back, I was so silly as I was drink driving and also reading an sms. In the end i lost at an corner when i was at the speed of at least 160kmh, my car did a few 360degrees turn, my two front wheel flew off, my front windscreen shattered, and not to mention I was wearing any safety belt at all. I survived that crashed without suffering injuries, ok la only a slight strain in the neck and some cuts, but over all I'm alright. 3 months later which is 2 days ago, my car finally came out from the workshop with a repair cost of Rm7k. I know it sound stupid, that why I wasted so many just to repair one old car, but as I said earlier a bond has been developed between me and the car. After exit from the workshop I took it on a test-drive of speed and stability with consious state lar..Overall somehow I feel that since this is the second time I crash, I can't get back the satsifaction I used to feel in the car. But whatever the outcomes with this car, I will never sell this car, to the extend I will even keep it like an antique if the engine totally fail out. Will soon post-up pictures after the repaired car but for now this are the pictures taken after the crash.

So folks advise from me "DON'T DRINK AND DRIVE AND ALSO READ SMS AT THE SAME TIME". I won't advise people to wear safety belts because no matter what till now I still don'twear safety belt( :-p) hehe..I duwan become a hypocrite...

What You All Think ?

Closer View Of The Car

After Being Towed To The Workshop,Even Closer View.

Side View

Front View

Go or Don't Go

There's something lingering in my mind right now. Which is Go or Don't Go..? Which should I choose? Wondering what I am saying right. Well this Saturday happens to be the daughter of the sister who "WAS" someone special to me, and i recieve and invitation to the party by her elder sister. So right now at this very moment I'm still thinking to GO or Not To Go. I've actually already pass the birthday present to her sister @ the little sister mother yesterday. I've gotten her a barbie doll and the house toy set at TOYCITY in 1-Utama. Hmmm...wondering if that will fit for a 12 years old girl, I'm always bad in getting gift for people.
But you all must be thinking why am I thinking "Go or Don't Go" right. Well, me and the special one in my heart already GAME OVER. So I felt if I didn't turn up means I took GAME OVER too seriously, but if I turn up means that I ok with everything. So I have till tomorrow to decide..Go or Don't Go?

E.R.P

Today I gonna crap about a fucking system that is being used my company called the BLARDY FUCKING "E.R.P". Want to know what is that, "E.R.P @ ENTERPRISE RESOURCE PLANNING @ ENTERPRISE RUBBISH PLANNING".
No offence, I started out going through this system with no hassle at all. But as time pass through and every week meeting's, this system is really getting on my nerves especially when it comes to my department. Voices Going Over, Fingers Pin-Pointing Each Other. Local and Corporate never faces problem when this fucked up ERP when on live, but sadly my dept which is EXPORT faces a lot of difficulties into this blardy ENTERPRISE RUBBISH PLANNING.
I won't deny the fact that this system helps out a lot in letting us know the amount of goods are in hand, but the fucked up part is when reaching end month. When the account department want to do thier closing our department is always the one left out unable to complete it. Why is it ? From my point of view now, I see two reason :
1) I have a fucked up dumb staff that key's slowly like a blardy tortoise
2) Shipment problems
Because of this fucking ENTERPRISE RUBBISH PLANNING,I'm everyday staying back at office till late hours just to check the our department order's has been properly key in to the system. For instance at this very moment, I'm stuck in my office gonna start doing the checking.

Useless Staff~

Honestly yesterday I was in a good mood, but my mood has to be spoilt by a stupid and idiotic person in my department. Wanna know what happen? Here's how the story go?
Yesterday I was nicely doing my work in the office, this B**ch came up to me and ask me to key back-order into the ERP system. Fine, I don't mind doing it since I also need to do some checking due to she has many mistakes. As I was doing the checking I found out something in the ERP system, "WTFF...The Goods Has Been Shipped Out..But I Can't Trace The Order List and The Pro-Forma Invoice..HOW COULD THIS FUCKING THING HAPPEN"..So I walk up to her to ask the Monthly Sales Report..even the more "WTF..I Was...She gave me a FUCKING LANSI HMMPHH....." and doesn't want to give me the file.
IssHHH.....Fine she don't want give, I got alternate but harder way of finding out. But whatever it is this gal really piss me of. This wasnt the first thing that she done to piss me off, there were other things in her way of doing her job that pisses me off. But all I did was bear, but the lansi "HMMPHH" is really i buey tahan.."WHO TELL FUCKING HELL IS SHE TO GIVE ME THAT LANSI "HMMPHH~~"
If she fucking don't change her this character, and improves her job She Fucking Gonna Get Fired.